Gratitude for Loki

So yeah...I got laid off a few weeks ago.  Yes it sucks.  It could be worse; I could have been kicked in the face with a golf shoe.  (I love saying that.)  But unfortunately that is the risk you always take when working for a small firm.  When the work doesn't come in you have a very limited float time before you have to layoff employees.  And that's what happened.  (Oh and my old coworkers are total douche bags with no social/human skills, which is a story for another post.)


As silly as it may sound I really feel having Loki has helped me not freak out and go into a depressive funk which I am prone to do in situations like this.

1. He has helped me stay on a normal sleeping schedule.
2. He gets me out of the house to take him on walks or to the dog park.
3. I'm a natural caretaker so being able to take care of somebody has been nice.
4. Having a little canine companion helps me feel not so lonely.
5. I feel safer with him here.  He's my little bodyguard.
6. And man, having him be so excited when I come home makes his special $60/bag food so worth it.


I am just sitting here listening to him snore on his bed (which I bring into my room every night) and it makes me smile.  Sometimes his mouth will be positioned in such a way that when he exhales as he sleeps his jowls will flap...and that absolutely kills me!

He was helping me prep for class.

One thing that I love about dogs are their
sometimes different color toes.

This was a couple weeks after I got him...he was
very curious about what was in the tall black
thing he couldn't see through.

Having fun at the dog park.
Yes that man is a pirate.

He often lays in this sophisticated manner.

I found out that he really likes top ramen.
I was stepping on tiny noodles for days!
The next week he ate 18 granola bars...
Houdini even got them out of their wrappers! 

He really loves to just be outside.

Half of his food always ends up behind his bowl.

What I see every morning.

As far as what I am going to do next or what I am going to do with my life...hell, if I know.  I am taking my exams...FINALLY!  I am going to keep networking and trying to find a job.  I was thinking about seeing if I could teach full time, but the pay is not very good.  I don't know.  Lately it seems as though whenever I come up with a plan or idea Heavenly Father is like......."Nope, it's not going to go like that Cassandra."  And then I'm back to floundering and wondering what in the crap I'm doing here.  Maybe I should just sell my soul again and work at a corporate firm.  At least that way I'll have a little bit better job security, a somewhat decent paycheck...but then I most likely wouldn't be able to teach or take Loki to work with me or be able to sleep at night.  Ugh.  This sucks.

Wish me luck in trying to figure out this thing we refer to as life.