Just call me...

...Master Cassie. 
Oh, holy shit balls.
8 1/2 years of post high school education came to the big finale/final review today.  And it went pretty well.  Better than I was expecting. 
This experience has been the most physically, emotionally, and mentally challenging thing I have ever done in my life. 

I haven't slept very much in the last four days so I am going to pass out now.  I will write more about my project and my final review once I have rested and feel a bit better.

It's the final countdown

The count down has begun.
Three weeks left until final reviews. Three weeks left until I am done with a Masters Degree in Architecture. Oh holy crap.
Five years doing undergrad (I graduated with a billion extra credits) and three and a half years of graduate school. I wonder how well I will adjust not being in school...I will share my internal freak-outs another time.

Updates:
-My finger is still sore from the x-acto/superglue incident. I will consult one of the doctors in my ward tomorrow. Amputation is still a possibility.
-No bed sores yet.
-I broke my cardinal rule: I HAVE to sleep for 4 hours before a review. I stayed up something like 26 hours before I reviewed. In the past not sleeping before a review has proven to be detrimental to my state of mind which inevitably makes them go horribly. Surprisingly this review went alright.
-I finally ordered and received my Design Thinking book. That is actually quite a relief.
-I wasted sometime today that I didn't have to spare by going to the Gap with a couple of my friends from school. I got a new sweater and peacoat for an absolute steal. I feel slightly less frumpy since I put the new sweater on.
-I'm a little weirded out that Russ and Chow found my blog.  Maybe they found me through Renee?  I prefer to be incognito.  But I love you Russ and Chow, you guys know me and how "special" I can be, so you guys are okay.
-The marriage plague is still spreading in my ward.  And it's still annoying...in all reality I am very happy for these people.  I'm just bummed that I am nowhere close to being married let alone I haven't dated anybody out here.  So every once in a while I have a pity party for myself.  They mainly happen when I am in cynical moods such as now.
 -My beautiful BFF Renee is going to pop out her second kid any day now.  I can't wait to meet this Festus Maximus in December!
-Another friend from college, Elisa is going to pop out her first kid in December.  I am very happy for her.  I think the kid will come out with a mohawk and an OpIvy t-shirt on.
-My gym finally reopened.  I have to go talk to them to see if they are going to refund the money that I requested while the gym was not in service.  I hate greedy corporate america.  Speaking of...I still hate Aetna.
-I have had a stress headache for the last week and a half.  That's just been awesome.  I took an anti-anxiety pill tonight (klonopin) and it helped actually quite a bit.  I need to get me more of those. 
-I want a dog so bad.  A lot of women have biological clocks that tick very loudly, well right now my doggy-clock is ticking.  I think going in a few weeks and being able to cuddle with Bowser, the handsome boxer that is 80lbs of pure love, is going to pacify that for a while.  Bowser loves to be held.  I'm talking about his whole entire body on top of yours.  Although my breathing can become restricted I love almost every minute.  He's my Baby Bowser.  Yeah, Boston the adopted pug is pretty dang ugly/cute.

I was going to post some of my drawings on here but Blogger doesn't support pdf files.  So maybe another time.

I need to pack up and go home now.  I have to wake up and go to church tomorrow.  I haven't been in three weeks and I kind of don't see me going again before my final reviews are over.

Buenos noches.

-cassie

Sleepy sleep time

So this is the latest I have stayed up this semester thus far...yet I am still writing a blog at this lovely hour. I thought that I would put a few thoughts that have come to my mind this past week:

-Man, my car drives a lot better when the parking brake is off. (Driving to school right before studio)
-Why in the hell am I
-Oh James, I love you and miss you! I will call you this weekend. (Earlier this week I woke up to a fantastic text from my friend James, then passed out again immediately.)
-How cute is he?! I want him to be my adopted grandpa. (At the WashU Law School Reunion weekend.)
-There are some awesome/epic comb-overs and toupes. I wish I had a camera! (At the WashU Law School Reunion weekend.)
-My legs hurt so bad this is pathetic, soon all of us (DP students) are going to have bedsores and skin infections because we don't move from our chairs and desks often enough! (As I was walking out of school at 4:45 am)
-Geeze, I hope I don't have to have my finger amputated. (My knuckle is sore and I have a lovely bump where I stabbed it with an x-acto knife and then to put superglue in the wound, so I could keep working on my model. I realized that was a stupid idea only after I did it. I then proceeded to pick out the superglue. It hurt. That was about a month ago and it still hurts.)


I am falling asleep...
More to come.

Oh Romeo, what's in a name?

I know I haven't written in quite a while. A lot has happened...well not that much...okay maybe a lot.

I guess I will just list things off and elaborate where I feel it is necessary.

-I started my last semester of graduate school.
-I got the professor that I really wanted for Degree Project and I sit by my bestest buddy Jordan...so studio life is good.
-I am also taking a great class known as SLAM CO (Saint Louis Art Museum Construction Observation). I get to wear a hard hat, neon yellow vest, protective eye wear and scary butch/lesbian hard-soled shoes. It is such a great class!
-I had a professor ask me to write him a letter of recommendation for an award he was nominated for. I felt very honored to be asked to do that. I spent a good amount of time trying to write something that would do him justice.
-I got called to be a Relief Society teacher...seriously! I have only taught three times and they are progressively getting better. For my second lesson I put a picture of Megan Fox and Hugh Heffner up on the board...I am like no other teacher they've had before! ;)

-And the big one...my dad has had prostate cancer.
Over the last few years his Gleason score has remained relatively low (~6). This spring he went in for a biopsy and cancer cells were found. Surgery was scheduled for August to remove the prostate. He had a pre-op MRI and the doctors saw what they thought might be a metastasis on his hip. So that freaked everyone out for a good week. (I had even made the decision that if that was the case that I would leave school to spend time with my family.) The area on his hip ended up being a shadow from a previous injury and not a tumor because nothing showed up on the x-rays. After a lot of self-diagnosing and pessimistic/worse case scenarios he felt that he needed to just trust his doctors and that things would be alright.
So my dad ended up having his prostate out at Huntsman Cancer Institute (which is bizarre because I had used the HCI as a precedent for my Degree Project.) The surgeon was confident that the tumor/cancer was encapsulated and that they had gotten clear margins. Pretty much best case scenario all around. I have no doubt that Heavenly Father definitely heard and answered our prayers.
I called him twice a day to check up on him. We even skyped a couple of times while he was doped up and he was hilarious as usual. He was as happy as a clam because he was getting to eat salmon and drink fruit smoothies. So he was in the hospital for 5 days I think...then he went home with his "pee-bag."
The next few days were really rough for him, he wasn't feeling well both physically and emotionally. He went in for the post-op appointment, got the catheter out, and the pathology report back. The tumor was encapsulated and the margins were clear!
Over the next couple days his pain progressively got worse instead of better (7-9 on a scale from 1-10.) I thought he was just being a wuss or had just not been keeping up on his medicine, like he tends to do. Well the pain got so bad that Dina took him to the emergency room Saturday morning. A CT scan revealed he had two large abscesses where his prostate was removed. I felt like a royal jerk for not believing him. He was readmitted to the Huntsman. The doctors opted not to drain the abscesses and treat it intravenously with antibiotics. After four days of salmon and sleeping the abscesses had only reduced in size 20%, not ideal but going in the right direction.
It's been about a week since he was released from the hospital for a second time with another pee-bag. He had another follow-up appointment with yet another CT scan. The abscesses were a lot smaller and his doctor said he was confident that the abscesses were just fluid filled and that there was no need to go in and drain them. So my dad is supposed to finish the antibiotics and continue to rest and heal. Next week the doctor said they would remove the catheter because he wants to make sure that the bladder continues to drain and that there are no other issues.
As soon as my dad was well enough to sit at a computer he has been "researching" and reading crap on the internet. So every time I talk to him he is going on about how he could have the really bad kind of cancer and that his doctors don't know what they're talking about. That's when I have to gently bring him back to reality and tell him that his doctors really do know more about his condition and new treatments than the obscure quacks on the internet. He usually says "Yeah, you're probably right." I respond by saying "Not probably Dad, I am right. Now turn off the computer and go upstairs and spend time with the family." Most of the time he obeys. :)
That's what's been going on with my dad. I know that wasn't the most eloquent writing but you get the idea.


-This last weekend a friend that I met through school got married. So about week before the wedding I had kind of forgotten about it and I didn't have a date, oops. That next Sunday I taught Relief Society so I was busy preparing the whole weekend and hadn't put much thought into a date. Well, as I was leaving church after my lesson I just so happened to glance backwards and see a guy that I have only talked to a few times and have gotten along with. I had a small yet distinct thought that I should ask him. That just kind of stayed with me for the next several days. So I did.
He was really nice on the phone and said that he would be more than happy to go. Score! It's always a good sign when you're not rejected right off the bat.
I had a great time and was actually very impressed by him. It was so nice to be able to interact with somebody that is confident, polite, intelligent, with a sense of humor.
Something I was just thinking about...During dinner he had brought up what he "needed" in a partner which kind of took me off guard. I then quickly responded something like I don't know what I want or need (which is totally not true.) I think I was just thrown off because I don't usually talk about that kind of stuff or share it openly. I am a cornball/nut-job that will be completely honest with anyone but I am very reserved and private about some things. I need somebody with a strong personality that is able to take control of situations if needed, someone who is confident and sure of themselves, someone who can accept my strong personality and all my craziness and still think I'm wonderful. Anyhoo...I really hope no one else besides the three friends that I know of on here are reading this.

If nothing else, I have been given hope in this dreary singles existence just to know that there are guys like that in the world.

It's time to end this post.
I really should revamp this blog. It's very boring does not accurately reflect my "style." Maybe when I am procrastinating some night in studio I will give it a whirl.

Ohhh I also webbed my desk at school! I will take a picture and put it on here. In the mean time check out how awesome these things are... http://www.selkbagusa.com/ I totally want one so I can look like Gumby when I go camping.




BB.
-cassie

Sob worthy

This is a great story.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7zwQ_7q-fU

Rambing Update

So there has been a serious epidemic in the singles branch...engagements. It's pretty messed up. Four couples are engaged and one couple got married on the DL, oh and one of the couples I didn't even know were dating. That's like half of our branch! I'm kind of glad I'll be moving in December/January because the dating pool is getting pretty shallow.
Phew.

My life has been pretty low key these days. I'm working at the Alumni and Development office at WashU as a student worker with the Law folks. I have been working on this scholarship audit which has been taking forever! I think I'm finally at a place where the gift officers can review the lists. After that I will start working on the fun stuff like the Law reunions with a fantastic lady named Julie. Oh it's also been really fun having Jordan working there too, sometimes we'll eat lunch together or get a drink upstairs. (And she always looks so cute in her dresses and "work" clothes.)

My roommate Matt got home last week from his summer semester in San Diego. It was really nice having him back, we talked and hung out at the pool several days in a row. He is such a sweet guy and awesome roommate! He's moving up to Chicago pretty soon because he finished the M.U.D. program so I'm kind of bummed about that.

This last Saturday morning I went on a tour of the Budweiser Factory with a couple people I know from church. It was awesome! Very cool facilities and interesting process. The tours they give are really well put together and official. They even have little trolleys that pick people up at the end of the tour and take them to the hospitality room back at the visitors center where you get 2 free beers! I of course opted for the soda. :)
We also went to the Soulard market after our tour. That is a fabulous market! I bought a pineapple, 2 nectarines, green beans, an onion, 3 bananas, 3 cobs of corn, and 4 limes all for under $10! Well the pineapple was gone by the next day. I had a very sore mouth. The only thing I have left is the corn, 2 limes, 1/2 of an onion. I should start going to the farmers markets Saturday mornings. It's so much fun and such a great deal. Jordan...want to go with me this weekend?

My 10 year high school reunion is in a few weeks. Initially I was thinking it might be fun to see some people so I thought I would make a trip home before school starts. But after looking at my bank account and prices of plane tickets coupled with the fact that I really don't care THAT much to relive the "glory" days of high school, I've opted to skip this one. Anyways I can do all of the facebook stalking I want and people that I want to stay in contact with, I do.
So that's that.

I'm also thinking about trying to find a job in New York after I graduate. I would really like to work in New York or DC so I would be closer to family. But I wouldn't mind working in LA, San Francisco, or even Chicago. I will pretty much go wherever I get a decent job. But I'm thinking New York and DC are definitely the top right now.

Oh yeah, I had two hair cuts this weekend. Yes, two. I will chronicle the experience in a separate blog post because the story is that awesome!

One more thing, I have CS5 now! I am officially a part of 2010 now!

Goodbye posters

These are some images that I put together of some guys in the Branch (church) for a going away wake that I "c0-threw." I printed 5 11x17 of each image and plastered them throughout the apartment.

I was talking to my little sister when I was making them and she wanted to see them. So here you go...

Scott just graduated medical school from SLU and is going to start a residency in Salt Lake to specialize in sleep medicine. (He was my home teacher for about 6ish months.)

Justin also recently graduated from the SLU medical school and is going to Boston for a one year general surgery residency. (He was my home teacher for 2 years.)

J.T. is a southern gentleman that is moving to Tennessee to help out his grandparents and go to school. (He was my home teacher for 1 month.)

And then...

To pick up...or actually another side track for tonight...

As I am laying on my bed typing this with only the light of the screen I look at my illuminated hands and begin to see how much texture my skin has. The single directional light is exaggerating the depth of the creases. The irregular fractures on my knuckles vary in distance from side to side. And the side of my thumb, that has a completely different texture, is more shallow and regular in pattern. The stripes from my thumb print fade as it moves further from the apex. I love that the veins on top of my hand are visible and bulge slightly from the otherwise flat surface. You can definitely tell that I have used my hands throughout my life. I would love to photograph this varying landscape that is my hand sometime.

I need to start using hand lotion regularly.

Something slightly more relevant: I am starting my new summer job tomorrow! Talk about a blessing from the Lord, this job (so far) is perfect. I'll let you know how it goes.

It's official...

The semester has ended and I have caught up on sleep.

I pushed really hard this semester and I am proud of what I was able to accomplish in studio. This is pretty much the first time that I can say that and truly feel it.

Of course I still have some loose ends that I keep dragging on and on. I still need to finish my Design Thinking book in the next two days and send it off to be printed. I need to prep and burn cd's of my cumulative studio work, cumulative Design Thinking work, and final studio diagrams and images for the school's Approach magazine. Oh crap I still have to go clean up the rest of my desk. It's pretty much all packed I just need to haul it down to my car.

I've been doing a lot of church related activities lately. It started with going with some people from my branch to the Cinco de Mayo celebration on Cherokee street two days after my review. (I referred to it a polygamy date because there were four girls and one guy and I referred to the girls as Dave's Harem.)

Side story: One of the girls on the polygamy date, named Angie, was just graduating from the accelerated nursing program at SLU, whom I had never met. Well it turns out she is awesome. We've hung out a lot the last week considering we just met. It sucks because she is moving back home to North Carolina, tomorrow, to take her boards and find a job. But if we ever find ourselves living in the same city or near each other I will have a non-drama oriented friend to hang out and complain about boys with.

Continuing on with Cinco de Mayo:

The male in the polygamy date was very insistent on me riding the mechanical bull. So after walking by the bull multiple times in two hours and one last jab from Dave I thought to myself "What the hell?!"

Dave went first and did pretty well. Then before I knew it it was my turn. I hopped onto the bull with a small crowd gathering and was actually embarrassed for the first time in years. With a flushed face and pounding heart I clenched my legs around that metal bull, grabbed onto the handle and with the knowledge that I could very easily die threw my arm into the air and took off. The bull operator was nice at first and much to my surprise I stayed on. I believe it was all the years of dancing that gave me the balance and strong legs that kept me on that thing. Eventually my inner thighs were getting really tired and I couldn't squeeze my legs hard enough to stay on so I gave in, accepting my fate I fell off. I hit the blue mat and to my surprise didn't die, the mechanical bull didn't trample me.

I did it. Seriously. I rode an #*&@ing mechanical bull!

So thank you Dave for doing that with me!

It's late. I'm tired. I will continue on with this tomorrow.

Quick Update

-The semester is coming to an end. My studio final review is next Thursday. I am excited because I really like my project this semester.

-I still have a few loose ends to tie up for Design Thinking...the never ending class.

-Side story: when I was talking to my Argentine professor I asked him about my board and what I could do to improve. He shook his head, touched his forehead and said in his little accent "Oh, Cassandra. Cassandra. Cassandra. It looks like an accountant did it."

Now, two years ago I probably would have been crushed. This year I just laughed because I knew my board was not up to standard, and really an accountant?! It's humorous. Sung Ho once said my project looked like a pregnant worm and during my final review for 318 I had the critics tell me twice that my plans looked like bad contractor plans (I then started crying and hyperventilated.) I've had to grow a pretty tough skin and now I find the humor in the absurd comments and metaphors, and actually appreciate the creativity.

-I have an assignment and quiz tomorrow for my Climate and Light class. The professor is this ~70 year old guy who is the driest funniest grandpa guy in the world. I actually really enjoy his class.

-Life is good. I still don't know what I am going to do this summer. Wish me luck in figuring it out.

-That's all.

Warning: this blog is lame

So I really only have 2-3 people who read my blog so I feel as though I can be more candid on this forum than on others. So here it goes...

Hello, my name is Cassie and I'm a sugaraholic.

I have had a sweet tooth for as long as I can remember, I think it may have even started in the womb. I know candy and sugar is horrible for me. I know it. But there's a little devil that lays dormant on my cravings organ for 27 days of the month. The rest of the time he raises hell and turns me into a monster, kind of like the one in Men In Black that can only be satisfied by consuming a large amount of sugar. It's horrible.

But since my last relapse I have stayed off the wagon. Holiday candy proves way too tempting for me! I love holidays (see my last blog) and the candy is half the fun! For example I am eating Starburst Jellybeans right now that I found in the Easter section and they are delicious.

I have said this time and again but Peeps are the reason holidays were invented. Forget religion, culture, and tradition; peeps=holiday. But for some reason I don't buy peeps unless it's a special occasion or if I'm going to share them with somebody. I think it may be because to me peeps seem worse for me because they don't even try to hide the fact that it's sugar. Whereas other forms of sugar mask themselves as something slightly less poisonous like Starburst jellybeans, they are FRUIT flavored.

Okay I've had enough of this ridiculous blog.

Oh yeah and who swears at FHE? Apparently I do in front of my entire group while we are playing a game. I'm getting pretty good at sealing my fate as a spinster.

Holiday Madness

When I was younger my mother would always do something fun for every holiday. For example practically every Valentines Day she would leave five matching shirts (old banana republic animal shirts) folded in the kitchen with a little note or treat. Easter baskets were always fantastic! Peeps, peanut m&m's, jelly beans, humming bird eggs, and usually socks or tights.

When I was a teenager my mom kind of stopped doing those things because we the two oldest were out of the house and D,E and I were little brats that didn't appreciate it. She's kind of picked it back up as much as she can even though we are all pretty much out of the house. She sent me some Halloween window stickers to help decorate my desk at school (I web it every year.)

NOW I LOVE holidays and birthdays. I love to make birthdays special for others. It kind of started in High School when I bought 18 balloons for my best friend and had the office aids deliver a couple per class period. In college the more memorable birthdays was when I threw a little surprise dinner party for my really good friend. I love to decorate with crepe paper and make things as cheesy as possible. I also like to buy the number of balloons the person is turning, so they have a ridiculous balloon bouquet in their house.

Oh and don't even get me started on decorating cookies! I love decorating sugar cookies. It all began with Grammy Lou, sometimes she would have my sisters and I over to swim and make sugar cookies, my favorites were the dinosaurs.

Today I have a set of 100 cookie cutters and a bunch of others that I have collected along the way. When I bake sugar cookies it turns into a huge 2 day production. I usually set up a special work table (Dina HATES it when I do this) and I custom mix all of my colors, have toothpicks for detailing, and gels and sprinkles galore. I love to make weird ones, for one of my friends who's in med school I made a bunch of severed fingers, pussy bleeding feet, people with broken limbs, etc. I think I may have scared him, amongst other things.

One year I made chocolate covered cookies on sticks and then decorated them with colored chocolate Halloween style. I made mummys, Frankensteins, black widows (legs and all), ghosts, and scary pumpkins. I gave them to everyone at Dr. Bowen's office, oh I miss him. I really hope I have a picture of those somewhere because they were pretty dang cute.

These days I don't have the time to do stuff like that anymore...hopefully someday I will. I just know when I have kids I'm going to go crazy.

In conclusion, I really appreciate holidays and I know that a lot of it stems from my mothers example. This is just another reason why I love her and think she is wonderful.

Crap, when is mothers day?

Jordan, this one is for you...

So I went out to lunch today with a really great person that I know through church and I mentioned that I was going to make more of an effort to go to institute. She said something like "Oh yeah, I read that on your blog." I was flabbergasted, how in the crap did she know I had a blog?! She then informed me that the link to it was on my facebook info section. I just about died. I think I put it on there when I was in Finland so people could check out what I was doing and I forgot to remove it!

Who in the hell knows who's seen my crazy rantings and depressing tales of my life!

So THANK YOU Brittany for informing me of that little detail.

Moving on...

My friend and roommate in Finland, Jordan, said that I need to write more blogs when I'm happy and not when I hate people. So Jordan this one's for you!

I love school. So far the semester has been going relatively well. I really like studio so far and am learning how to trust my decisions a lot more.

I've been working out and feeling good.

I had some friends from my school life and church life over for dinner this last Saturday night. It actually turned out really well, even though my church friends were outnumbered 3:1. Everyone really liked the guys from church, maybe I'll invite them to do more things.

I was called to the activities committee at church. I am not quite sure how this is going to work out. I am kind of an eccentric person and like to have activities where people dress up as lucky charms and give out clues at various checkpoints around the city and have a person dressed up as a leprechaun with a pot of gold at the end or project movies onto the side of a building and have movie theater popcorn from an actual popcorn machine. Oooo or one of my favorites was a Cinco de Mayo party with virgin margaritas! I like to go all out on things like this and I'm not sure how receptive this group is going to be to my ideas. We'll see. (Oh, sorry Jordan, that was not very optimistic.)

Ummmm....what else....I look forward to getting up everyday now. It's been a long time since I've really felt that way. In the past I have been so stressed out that I want to sleep. I think auditing one of my classes is really helping with that. I don't need the credit and I'm taking the class just for fun, why not audit and not have to do the papers and instead spend my time in studio or sleeping or actually trying to have a social life? Oh the possibilities are endless!

Holy crap I need to go to sleep.

One more thing, I've been watching, really only listening, to Tough Love season 1 on VH1.com. Jordan you should check it out! The host is pretty cute and awesomely brutally honest with some of these crazy chicks. I give it two thumbs up on my list of reality shows.

Well that is all or tonight...or today...

I love people, even the a-holes at the ticket paying counter at City Hall. Yes, I love that douche bag in some way.

Good night, stars. Good night, moon.

Good night, Bowser.

Short Randoms

-I just purged a bunch of numbers from my phone. Very therapeutic. Now I don't ever have to see those names again when I'm searching for someone else.

-I am really annoyed with a particular person who despite my efforts to be friends with has proven unfruitful. Which doesn't make sense since we get along so freaking well...but seriously I can't tell if this person has major social skill discrepancies or just doesn't want to be friends outside of our infrequent interaction.

-I made my bed this morning and it made me sad because I remembered how much I really want to share my bed/life with somebody.

-I rediscovered pandora today. I love it.

-Went to NY to visit Anika and co. for nearly a week when I really only had to be in NY for two days for our studio trip. I have a lot of work to make up but I loved every minute of it.

-Otto painted my fingernails when I was in NY. He is my special buddy.

-I braided Milo's hair a few times. It was cute and Anika said Milo liked it.

-I have a recording of Clio saying "Cassie answer the phone" as my new ringer. I love it!

-Anika made me the perfect scarf.

-Some people in school can really suck. Lazy, selfish, and vindictive are all words that come to mind.

-Briana and I are on the same crappy boat, but it's nice to at least have company.

-Today I did laundry, went grocery shopping, went to school and worked, worked out at the gym, and I woke up before noon! :)

-I've never really put this in writing or told very many people but I really want kids...freaking biological clock.

-I am going to make fajitas this week or next weekend and invite people over. I am going to be more social.

-I really like my studio professors: Jared Della Valle and Andy Bernheimer. So far it's been good and I really like the fact that this is more of a self driven studio and I have to make fast decisions and be confident in those decisions.

-I don't like being so spread out from all of the people that I like at school.

-I have been going to bed between 12 and 1 for the past week. Tonight is an exception because I am writing this. I need to go home now.

-Oh and Peter and I found my celebrity doppelganger tonight...Ginnifer Goodwin.

-Last night I put on the new duvet cover that my mother made for me over Christmas. I found on the bottom where the button holes are she stitched an "I" and then sewed on two buttons one of a heart and the other a "C." So it said "I" (heart) "C." I cried. My mom is so good to me and I love her so much.

-I have had a head cold for the past week and a half and today I have had an awesome pressure headache. I also didn't know that my body could produce so much snot. I hate being sick. I feel it going to my lungs a little bit.

-I went to institute on Thursday. I am going to make an effort to go now that I don't have class Thursday nights.

-I really need to go to bed now.

An example of my brilliance...

So I'm walking into Smiths the other day with my dad and he turns to me and says "Man it's colder than a whale-diggers butt!"

I laughed then said "Dad, I've never really understood that saying...what is a whale-digger? Does it have something to do with the whaling industry and the ocean being cold?"

My dad looked at me and said "No, Cassandra it's not WHALE it's WELL. A well-digger."

Oh to sing my little sister to sleep...

Here I am sitting on the floor of my 25 year old little sister's room playing on my computer waiting for her to fall asleep. We watched a pretty scary movie the previous night that gave her nightmares. So naturally tonight she was a little reluctant to go to her room in the basement alone. So here I am and I was reminded of the following story:

When we were little Dina and I shared a bedroom and a bunk bed (I had the top bunk) and I took my role as an older sister very seriously. One night Dina asked me to sing to her when it was time for us to fall asleep. She told me that it was because she thought I had a pretty voice. Me being the proud older sister that I was obliged and "gifted" her with my supposedly angelic voice. In the middle of my third or fourth song my older sisters in the room next door began to yell at me to be quiet and shut up, but I paid them no heed.

After what I'm sure was nothing short of a full on concert did I finish singing and to my surprise Dina was asleep! I was so mad. It took me forever to fall asleep that night because I had the knowledge that I was the only person awake and I was scared.

Well night after night of ballads and primary sings with my older sisters yelling from the next room I continued to fall for the same "you have a pretty voice" line over and over. And every night I would get mad that she was asleep before me. (Who knows how many weeks this went on for, it could have easily been months!)

Not until several years later did Dina actually confess that she had no interest in my vocal abilities but in fact she asked me to sing to her because that was the only way that she was guaranteed not to be the last one awake. Nice, huh?!

So here I am 20 some odd years later sitting on a dog bed on her bedroom floor. And even though my little ego was bruised so long ago I am more than happy to keep her company as she falls asleep tonight, with no singing involved.

Renee this one's for you

What I've decided...

-Since I would like to get married and have a family some day and the dating pool in St. Louis is o' so shallow I have decided to join eharmony. (commence laughing)

-Since I would like the aforementioned things and I want to feel good about my body again so I decided to join a gym. I joined in October and was going at least twice a week until finals from hell came down on me. As soon as I get back to St. Louis the gym and I are going to be friends.

-Since I am getting older and my mind may be failing soon I have decided to start writing down random stories that I recall in this blog. This will be for myself and although may not be for the purpose of entertaining others maybe actually end up being quite funny, because I crack myself up.

-Since I have listened to Vampire Weekend's new album on npr (http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=122213523) I have decided that I like them even more than I did before.

That's pretty much all I've decided right now. If I remember more I will post.